I’m hungry!

About a month or two ago, I got really excited because I started losing weight like crazy, and I didn’t quite understand why. I was cooking more than I used to, but I was still going out to dinner and going drinking sometimes. I had stopped regularly working out, though I was continuing to run marathons. But really, there wasn’t a big reason that I would suddenly be losing weight.

This weekend, it’s my brother’s wedding, and I’m going to be a bridesmaid. I’ve been trying the last two weeks to try to eat healthier and step up the workouts for the occasion, but without a ton of success. This past week, I swore up and down that I was going to make it happen though, and I’ve been good about finally getting to the gym. I’ve been doing a mix of cardio and weights, at least 30 minutes a day but sometimes more.

However, the net effect of all this working out is just making me so hungry. My appetite is absolutely insatiable. I came home from work yesterday around 6 PM and was totally starving. Boyfriend was planning to take me out to dinner to celebrate my PR at the Anchorage Marathon (he’s been swamped with work so this was our first opportunity), but I didn’t care – I felt like I had to eat. First I munched on some innocuous stuff: a Fiber One bar, some red peppers, a little bit of low-fat mozzarella. I moved to a small scoop of vanilla ice cream (the Edy’s slow churned, so only about 90 calories/serving, of which I ate less than a serving). I even tried drinking seltzer to fill me up, but I was still just hungry.

At 7 PM, Boyfriend was supposed to call and let me know definitively if we were going to dinner (he was swamped with work and still didn’t know if he could get away). I tried him at 7 and kept trying him for ten minutes, but couldn’t reach him on either his desk phone or his cell. Finally, I assumed he was in a meeting and it wasn’t happening, so I turned to the crap: a candy bar I had been saving for Boyfriend, a mini bag of chips I had gotten on a flight and tucked in my pantry.

Right after I finished this binge and started contemplating some steamed vegetables for dinner and then a long workout to try to regain equilibrium… Boyfriend called. He had been busy trying to wrap things up but was now hopping on the subway and would be at my place in 30 minutes to take me out. I told him that I had just been snacking and that I wasn’t hungry, and he apologized for calling late, but now that he had fought so hard to get out of the office, he really wanted to take me out. I said okay, and hung up.

And then I sat on my bed and cried. I wasn’t hungry and I didn’t want to go to dinner. I wanted to go to the gym and work out, and I wanted to stop eating crap and start getting myself together. I don’t have a body image problem and it’s not that I think I’m fat, but I wanted to avoid carbs and use this week to take off the little bit of water weight that means the difference between looking good and looking awesome. I cried for a few minutes, but then pulled it together in time to frantically do 10 minutes of light weights to help me burn some calories and work up an appetite.

We went out to dinner, and I had a perfectly lovely time. By the time we ordered, I was plenty hungry, and I really enjoyed the meal. We finished dinner, and as is usual for us, Boyfriend asked for the check as they cleared the entrees – no dessert. However, instead of being grateful that Boyfriend isn’t a big dessert person (and therefore I’m not tempted to indulge), I was annoyed. I wanted dessert, darn it! We headed back to my place so I could grab some books and my laptop, and then we set off to walk over to Boyfriend’s so he could do a bunch of work. On the way, we stopped at a bodega for Boyfriend to get beer… and me to get dessert. I hemmed and hawed over the choices for a long time, finally opting for a Kashi Go Lean bar in chocolate/caramel flavor that had a lot of protein and fiber for only 140 calories. I just needed a sweet fix, and that worked without being nearly as bad as ice cream/candy/cookies/etc.

After scarfing that down, though, I still wasn’t sated! Fortunately, Boyfriend doesn’t have much food at his apartment, so the rest of the damage was just a Hoegaarden, but really… this appetite needs to end.

Maybe I’m better off giving up on the workouts again?

Comments

  1. The more you work out the more you’ll be starving it’s a given. I feel like I’m a bottomless pit these days! I’ve taken to calling my hunger “THE HULK” as in the Hulk needs to eat RAWR!!!!! It’s ridiculous actually… LOL!

    You’re going to look FANTABULOUS at the wedding, especially with that PR glow! :)

  2. re: belgian beer… I like b. cafe (both west and east side; west has better selection..east has beer garden) as well as the belgian beer bar on west 4th street near wash sq park (somewhat dive-y and very awesome).

  3. Maybe it was just the time of the month. I notice right around when I pms I am so very hungry especially if I have been working out. I would just see how it goes.

  4. You are probably just building muscle, but I can totally relate to this post. Are you eating protein with every meal? Also have you tried those green monster shakes (www.greenmonstermovement.com)? I find those help me alot, and eating six small meals a day.

  5. I love a ton of weight by not working out. Then I started again, and the appetite came back…and i’ve slowly been gaining weight again. It is SO FRUSTRATING!!

  6. I know you don’t need any “diet” tips, but I will still say that I find when I wait to long between meals/snacks, and get TOO hungry, then I never seem to be satisfied, no matter how much I eat. So just in case you’re skipping lunch because you’re too busy or “saving up” for dinner out, I would advise you to eat more frequently so you never get over-hungry!

  7. I amd the SAME way when I work out a lot! FAMISHED – and nothing ever seems to satisfy me!!

    Maybe just try to get more protein?? I don’t really have good advice because I’m totally the exact same way but sometimes eating a BIG breakfast with lots of protein helps me get through the day!

  8. OMG just re-read my comment…meant to say LOST a lot of weight. Not LOVE. Where was my mind??

  9. Okay – so I’m not a freak when that happens – I just had the same thing (week of not great eating and little exercise = weight lost, week of careful eating and regular exercise = not a budge on the scale)! At least it usually happens in cycles or phases and you know it’ll end!

  10. Whenever I work out a lot I ALWAYS feel hungry 24/7. It’s hard to get that balance. Kashi bars are awesome :-)

    PS. I love panera. It’s one of my favorite sandwhich places!

  11. I always find that I’m not satisfied until I have some protein. I’ll snack and snack, but as soon as I have some peanut butter or something, I’m finally full.

  12. did you read the really great article recently about exercise hindering folks from losing weight? either they get hungrier or feel they have the right to eat.

    personally, I know when I initially step up the workouts i get hungry. And like a few folks have said I have to really try to get protein and fill up with fruits/veggies so I don’t over do it

    you can do this though and honestly we’ve seen picks, you already look great. so cut yourself some slack and maybe just not worrying about food so much will help

  13. Thats so funny! The only way I EVER lose weight is if I’m doing real low key workouts….say 30 mins walking or elliptical…or I’m pregnant..haha. If I’m running, lifting, etc. I’m too hungry to control myself. Weird how that works huh?

  14. I hate days like that, where I feel like I could eat forever and never be full and they always seem to happen when I’m trying to hard to keep things in control. Maybe by not focusing so much on it last time, you were able to do what you needed to do, but not stress out about it so much?

  15. Wait, isn’t what you just did called “carbo loading”? You can never get ahead before your next race too soon!!

  16. You are entitled to eat whatever you want as long as you keep signing up for different marathons. :-)

  17. UGH! I totally see where you’re coming from! This is something I’ve dealt with my whole life! Now when I say “oh I’m hungry” my bf usually sacastically responds with “what else is new??”

    Just your body telling you that you’re chaing up your routine a lot, which is a great thing for getting your body in shape. It’s the up and down marathons on the weekends, then quick tempo workouts during the week. Don’t cry and feel like you’re doing something wrong… you deserve the extra cals!!!

    Oooh for the wedding… avoid salt 3 days before and do quick paced ab workouts the night before the wedding AND the morning of…. esp if its before a run :)

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